Dark Moments - Woe is Me

I spent last night enjoying a wonderful meal with friends. They were so in love with each other their faces were glowing. It made me smile just watching them. Each had lived through some bad times, I keep patting myself on the back for the part I played in their meeting.

As I sat there making up this threesome I wondered if that was all there was for me. Lots of dinners with friends and family feeling like the odd one out.

Now don't get me wrong. It was an amazing evening filled with laughter and joy but a part of me was envious and sad.

I wasn't game to accept dates anymore. I had made such poor choices my heart was aching. When I had found myself going through the online dating simply out of habit, I knew that it was it for me.

Yep it's one of those "woe is me" moments. We all have them, but then I remember everything I have achieved and all those moments yet to come. I remember with love my friends, family, past lovers and even my health thinking how truly blessed I am to have them in my life.